Hey there folks! Complete and utter nonsensical rambling ahead, feel free to skip it:

Soooooo I'm around 50 pages left to be done with the book thingy, and the topics I'm dealing with the narrative are, to put it in a soft way, kinda fucked up. Now here's the thing about talking or addressing horrible things on entertainment: it's very important to portray the worst of humanity to bring up the best of it. Mind you, I'm not saying you should watch slasher films and found footage of cartel victims for breakfast in order to become a better human being, but one aspect of horror or grounded terror is that it should make you say "I need to take a break from this".

When you are engaging with something tough, something gruesome, turning away from it doesn't make you a weakling or a wussy. It makes you human. And as I'm writing this book, I wanted to basically approach it as something that will make you say "yeah, I'm not reading this right now" and forces you to put down the book and go touch grass or pet your mascot.

Ok this sounds like I'm writing a transcendental story about loss and mankind or something similar, but far from it, book's shit. But within that shit I want to still portray interesting concepts to at least create discussion among the readers. Aside from "this guy's fucked, who would write something like this while being sane?", obviously.

Horror is important, regardless of our enjoyment while experiencing it. I love horror, and I'm such a Courage the Cowardly Dog towards horror games that I've never been able to play the Resident Evil Remake for more than 1 hour without getting a heart attack. Hell I can't play Majora's Mask because the clock constantly running gives me anxiety. But I still love horror, and everything related towards that genre because of the way it speaks to people.

My hopes of winning the contest are 0 to none, and I'm not saying that as a downer. I haven't written anything solid since I was 19, and I'm well aware that my way of writing is miles away from your average guy. But even if I know this, I want to try it just to see if at least it can make someone say "I want to hug my loved ones after this" due to the mental scars left by the imagery I'm presenting to them.

I don't even know what I'm trying to say about this post see this is what comes out from someone who has been coughing 10-15 pages a day.

So yeah, I'm still alive, still writing. Oh and like I said, I'll translate this to English once I send it just to actually write in a language I'm more comfortable with rather than... My own native language. Yeah I think I have some loose screws in my head.

Take care and enjoy the weekend!

-Ray